” * + ahwenBABY + * “

<December 31, 2005>

happy deepavali~~~~ ehe.. selamat hari gawaiii~ … hehehe.. ops.. soli la.. its happy new year 2006.. happy happy always to all… and this year my new year revolution is…. ehem.. are… no more clubbing for me and cannot miss church, speak the word of sweet blessings for my friends coz every word we say towards our friends will be a curse or blessing for them.. so if the curse dont work on them, it will end up cursing yourself.. so must becareful o..

this year had been a marvellous year of friendship for me… i made alot of nice friends.. friends in uni, in ccc church, jb, and my private emotions online.. but not a good relationship year… albert my twin, said that i’m too extreme for relationship.. break the records.. haha… and early this year, i heard from the tv or radio that i’ll have some relationship problem of 3 party.. i actually dun believe it at 1st.. den now only i realise… i was a mistress.. darn~ <i haven’t tell bb and aping abt this>

my study year is going very fine now… i LOVE it in school now… its fun.. not stressed at all… i just need to take care of my grades, just a pass is good enuff liao.. so dun really need to study so much~ haha.. i see my roommates exam time study till 4-5am. but everyday i yumcha till 4-5am nia..(yumcha till so late, until my pimples all also pop out. next time dun dare liao) haha.. den study time only study till 12am den go to sleep ler..

but i actually hated the period when after my stpm result came out… everyone was shocked.. but i’m not, coz i know i did badly.. and i never hope that i’ll go into any uni… i actually prefer to work(last time, now i love to be in sch).. a hairdresser is my favourite.. everyday can wear nice nice clothes, make up, den can do whatever to my hair… love it so much… both of my yiyi are hairdressers in singapore… they earn approximately 2k sing dollar, probably more than that..

i never have dreams(hope)… i always dun think so far.. coz u might not know what happens tomorrow… i’ll probably die by tomorrow.. so when my cameron yiyi asked her friends, what is your future hope and dreams? most of them will answer, wanna be rich and get high pay job… den she’ll recommend them to work for lampe berger.. haiz~ like that also can think de?? isk isk isk…. i really wanted to answer her, "i always wanted to be a good housewife and marry a rich guy, can i?" <– can that be a hope? izzit realistic? isn’t that easy… be a siu lai lai.. hahaha…

money comes and money goes… so be happy for what u hav now.. don’t hope for more… i’ve always experienced a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow… haha… so don’t be like me.. like my amma always say, "tiger reach ur buttocks liao only u wanna run" <– a foo chow quote..

so, i’ll be hoping for a good time next year… hope that i can manage my money with wisdom.. dont over spend on shopping.. and also for my mammi too… she is having some kind of tumor in her uterus/ovary… i’ll pray always for her healing and salvation.. and also a good surgeon with wisdom to operate her after chinese new year.. oh ya.. and also for meimei that will go to national service tomolo… all the best.. hope that she will be good, pray for the holy spirit to protect her.

and for all my friends… happy always.. hope that u all will have your dreams come true this special coming year… all the best.. year year got fish and dragon horse spearm god.. hahaha..

<December 29, 2005>

nbtd… so i did something…. guess wat?? i played wit my make up.. hahaha… see an extreme change on me..

got little weird rite? hehe… coz i put the eyeshadow different colour ler… right eyes: yellow + pink, left eye: black + silver. coz at 1st wanna mix and match the colours de.. den finish liao wan take pics ma..

haha.. den somemore no concealer to cover the dark circle worr… den my eyes cacat worr, one no double eyelid, one got.. haiz~~~

*from this i transform myself to this..

<December 28, 2005>

waa… today so tired… just oni came back from shopping alone in sg wang… ya… alone.. AGAIN.. everytime shop alone sure buy alot of things de.. haiz~~~ actually tot wan go do digital perm de.. but ask edi soo sooo expensive.. probably the price went up due to cny coming soon… so i rather spend the money shopping…

tot wan call biby go shopping together de… sms her no reply pun.. probably she’s still in s’pore bah… my feet hurts….. kelian my little toes.. red red edi… the flatty very hard.. end up hurting my feet..

this time bought all tops and accessories… and no skirt.. but saw 1 abercrombie and fitch’s jeans skirt.. very nice… but lazy wan go try coz carry many things liao.. den did the nails art.. scare later spoil the nails… so next time only go buy ler… this time the nails art not very nice… i only like the purple de… others de blur blur…

and see this bullshit t-shirt that i bought… funny rite? hahaha… somemore got alot other words.. all dam funny de… some more got another one i also wan to buy de.. but then all the same pattern de.. just wordings not same nia… not so special.. so only bought 1… and this pepsi earrings.. look kinda funny if i wear it.. haha..

at the end of the day… i bought a box of dragon beard peanut candy.. and its strawberry flavoured de o.. nice… i love eating peanuts so much.. hahaha… dunno y.. hope that my face wont pop up pimples ler.. ahaha…

when come back time, got 1 aunty so good.. i went up the bus, got no place to sit, den i stood loh.. den the aunty wan to go down from the bus, she tapped on my shoulder and asked me to take over her seat… she is sooo good o.. some more kelian me no seat… a big thanks to her…

mc de cc pc spoil edi… i cannot online… so kelian… so sien… now in sch… online at sch.. haiz~~ must wait till next month only get internet connection in my room..

<December 26, 2005>

yay~ finally back in mc liao… so tired ar… back in room need to clean up, change bedsheet, unpack and arrange back all my stuff… too many stuff liao…

last night we went to giant to buy groceries… den i wan to eat ‘tang yuen’.. so we bought the peanut fillings tang yuen… yum~~~ very very nice ar… haha.. although its late to eat, but still got eat loh… hehe… my gugu no time to make tang yuen for us, so we bought it in giant.. but i think she dunno how to make… haha.. *i lost 1 of the another pic.. terdelete jor.. cannot open my recycle bin coz my norton antivirus expired jor!! *sob sob*can open my recycle bin liao, but still i deleted the pic jor~ haiz~

this year christmas not as fun as last year de.. coz this year just celebrate in church nia… last year was in bintang walk counting down ar… but then… got gifts exchange in church loh.. i got a ferrero prestige from it.. den my gugu brought me to s’pore kaikai as a present… but then i asked for something else so she bought me this cute little my melody bloster from city square that day…

back in mc so cha de… the cc there de connection down… haiz~ cannot online.. so sien… but can do many things.. can copy songs into my pc~~ so many songs to copy… scare later my pc sot sot dun dun jor.. coz copy too many at 1 time… now in sch.. hehe.. coz sch online free de.. haha…

this "xiang ping" my mom bought in yong peng… but its teluk intan de.. very nice.. very fresh.. very crunchy… yum~ not like those in small packet de.. hard hard one.. this 1 really good.. recommended..

<December 21, 2005>

went to s’pore monday.. s’pore government giving S$20.00 for visitors to shop in there.. so syok.. went in wit my gugu and meimei.. so we hav S$60.00 to spend.. we actually used the voucher to buy vision pot for my cousin bro… coz he is getting marry early next year liao… so we are giving him the vision pot for his house warming gift…

kaikai the whole day… so tired… i got headache the whole day.. walk at orchard road also pening.. didnt take any pics.. coz no mood… den i get to eat those singaporean style waffle ice cream.. yum~ nice…

lamp burger genie car… nice ma?? and the big christmas tree.. the carolers was standing on the tree singing..

den shopping bought a few thing… accessories nia… my gugu dun let me shop for clothes de.. she sure scold me till kaokao if i buy chothes somemore… so i’m waiting to go back kl only buy.. haha…

haiz~ the whole day quarrel and fight wit my meimei.. sometimes dunno y i miss her when she’s not around.. haiz~ when she is around, feel like wanna beat her up…

den today was in the PKK office to help out also… help my gugu to shift her office and pasang her pc.. haih~ tired… somemore headache again…. feel like wanna sick liao this few days.. den came back need to cook.. today i cooked ‘hong jiu mian sian’.. so hot somemore i headache.. but nvm.. i eat also… k la.. tired edi.. wan go sleep ler.. nite nite…

<December 17, 2005>

pusat kebajikan kalvari(calvary care centre - social work) my new part time job there.. went to office work 2 days only, den refuse to go liao coz back pain carry those stuff that day.. haha… my christmas part time job.. doing charity… tonite later going to kotaraya to help out.. coz the kids is going to perform christmas event there..

afternoon today went to the homes, the homes for orphans, venetta lopez(i hope i spell it right) was there giving christmas present to all the kids there… u know who is she ma? she is denise that acted in under one roof, singaporean sitcom..

<December 16, 2005>

wah… virus clear from this pc liao feel so smooth… but i kena kao kao from my cousin bro… my gugu keep in bug him to come jb to repair this pc.. coz he said i surf illegal website den kena virus jor.. den i spent 3 weeks surfing on a super slow connection pc.. until now, the connection is smooth liao…

haha… heahea came bringing almond magnum ice cream and junkfoods.. he so bad… making me fat again…

den night time wan go giant buy grocery… den we went to lavender cake house buy bread for breakfast this morning.. den i bought chocolate mousse cake and a cheese cake.. yum!!~ T_T <FAT>

we tot y so many ppl at giant that night… den saw many ppl at the cinema there, so we decided to watch the cronicals of narnia.. it was 9pm when we bought the ticket the show start at 9.15pm.. after sending my gugu home, we went back to the cinema just in time.. the movie was just starting..

hmm.. jb ppl.. no manners de.. in cinema still on their handphones.. so many handphones ringing… haiz~ somemore throw all the junkfood everywhere on the floor.. i even saw a packet of mcD’s french fries on the floor.. haiz~

overall it was a great movie.. the girl lucy is very cute.. especially the curly hair really makes her cute…. heahea said still got another few episodes more.. coz he got the story book.. i’m looking forward to watch it ler.. and perhaps love also..

actually was supposed to watch this movie with stephen and jimmy that tuesday de… but it was movie day, so many ppl.. 1-4pm’s movie ticket all sold out.. coz i must go leave at 5-6pm.. so didnt get to watch.. at the end, stephen and jimmy watched the 6.30pm show after me went back..

<December 13, 2005>

last week went to youth camp, that’s y not around to update my blogs… the camp was nice.. i was hesitate to go at 1st.. but then, i decided to go at last. the camp was a 4 days 3 night camp 7/12-10/12…at mersing, johore.. abt 99 youths joined the camp… organized by the calvary charasmatic centre (CCC) the place my gugu work..

the 1st day in camp was happening dude.. the rock band plays like crazy.. really like in rock concert.. everyone is jumping like mad.. hehe.. i actually liked the rock band.. it was soooo cool.. i mean the way they plays la. or maybe the songs they played.. and also i love the banner, badge and booklets.. the design i mean… it was made creatively by dana and athens.. i love the banner especially coz its in hot pink..

den the second day, we had games.. it was amazing race.. but they changed the name to amazing grace.. must run here run there, den some of the thing u need to jump into the swimming pool and dive inside to get a fork and spoon to pass.. hehe we took another option, so we’re not wet.. our team won the 1st coz we are not wet and heavy to run ma.. haha and also we cooperate well.. yay~ it was fun… and i get to know many frens from there…

and the 3rd day, we had dare dressing event.. eyeryone is compulsory to wear silly outfit.. some ppl were so funny and daring.. guys even wore as girls.. in heels, speghetti strap and miniskirts.. and even make up.. i wore nothing special.. coz i dun wan to look hideous.. dana’s outfit was very special.. she is really creative.. but the winner was a girl that wears normally like lala mui in clubs nia… nothing special pun.. most probably she won coz she doesnt look ugly bah.. and also we hav skit play that night.. i’m a such a loser.. haiz~ i cannot act ler… i think i’m stupid-shy in front of ppl… i can’t even talk properly… luckily i was acting as a stupid anonymous who plays for 3sec only..

these are the pics of the ‘akua heroes’ .. haha… the prettiest ladyman was calvin. den some even wore only towel to cover up. den see clement.. he wore football jersey and a bra.. hahaha.. he looks funny.. u see the way he tied his hair… can u imagine he went on the stage and sang dont cha by the pussycats dolls and shake his butt in front of all the audience? haha.. it was funny.. dannis the superman wannabes..

1st pic: clement & me, 2nd: clement, calvin, matthew, shane, daniel, cheryline and philip.

1st pic: vivian, 2nd: me, 3rd: dana & eunice, 4th: daniel, cheryline & me, 5th: matthew & shane, 6th: dannis & me

the last day when we wanna leave the place, we took a whole group’s pic.. it was nice seeing them wear the orange tshirt.. coz contra with my black shirt ma.. so can see me immediately.. and also the strategic place i was in.. hehe.. the second pic i was squashed by the ppl there, still can see me?

<December 2, 2005>

today i’m feeling better liao ler… that day when waipo passed away… i knew that morning i have to call mammi and ask how is waipo… but i was too bz until i forgot….

then when in the evening.. i was online.. i remember again that i should call mammi… after online i really forgot all abt that so i went to prepare veggies for dinner.. it was abt 4.30pm when i was cutting the veggies..

den later after that at 5pm, i was free sitting on the couch.. so i called mammi.. but her phone was engaged.. so i waited.. then when mammi called me.. i asked how is waipo… mammi said.. waipo passed away… den mammi started crying again.. i was …. i dunno wat to say… tears rolled down my cheeks.. i tried my best to comfort mammi.. but not a single word came out of my mouth..

mammi heard me sobbing.. so she just asked me to pray for waipo.. and still i didnt say anything… after hung up the phone.. i cried non-stop for i also dunno how long..

den i switched on the pc, and started to jod down that memorial date which i will remember forever.. i cried so hard until i feel suffocated..

when my gugu came back from work late that evening.. i dunno how to tell her.. although i stopped crying edi.. i just do as usual.. she knew something happened to me.. so she started to ask how is my day? hungry edi? wan wat for dinner? i just answered anything.. den suddenly she ask me did my mammi called? my eyes filled with tears again.. den i said that waipo passed away liao.. so she just said that we will pray for her that night..

prayed for waipo’s soul.. safe journey to the happyland. prayed for comfort for all relatives in simpang2. prayed for strength for mammi, so that she wont fall sick.. and prayed for waikong too… hope that he will be fine..

*this is a journal that i’m writing for my waipo as a respect for her..

*i’m sorry coz i cannot attend your funeral today*

waipo look after me for so long when i was a kid… that time my parents was working in s’pore.. so i stayed with her.. haih~ i didnt even get to thank her for that…

the last time i saw her was on the 15/11 when i was back in hometown. she is still as caring as usual, she bought for me kampuan for breakfast that morning before i start my journey to kl..

i’ll miss her forever..

*rest in peace waipo*

love, baby emily <December 02, 05>